TANGO! A LOVE and HATE Relationship

13 Feb

Let's Tango!As they dance across the floor, he grabs her tightly against him. She slaps him and starts walking away. He grabs her arm and pulls her in.  She falls to the ground. He walks away. She grabs his leg as he pulls away, dragging her with him.   He stops, looks down and picks her up, and they dance together again.

This is how I see my relationship with my work.  There are times that I love and could spends hours working on it and then there are times that I just don’t feel inspired.

I sit on my computer looking at the screen waiting for something to happen.  Some creative inspiration? God’s voice? Anything would be better than nothing.  I get frustrated and walk away wondering why I’m I putting myself in this situation.

Other days, I’m in bed and at 2:00am I wake up with an idea.  I have to get up and write it down before I forget and then can’t wait to start working on it.

My issue as a mother, wife and student, finding the time to sit when you are inspired is very, very hard.  You try to schedule your time thinking “ok, once I pick up the kids, get them fed and working on their homework I have one hour to sit down and work on my documentary, before I have to get up and make dinner.”  But how can you tell your creative side “hey, it’s time to turn on your creative juices and get busy.”  No, these are the times that I hate, because–trust me–there are no creative juices coming out of me.

But then there are those times that it just flows from me, and I don’t want it to stop.

So my question’s to you, readers.  How do you do it?  How do you keep your creative juices going on all the time.  Because at the pace I’m going, I will never finish.

I do have a love and hate relationship with my work, but I hope that like the tango, in the end my work and I could dance together as beautifully as the couple doing the dance.

8 Responses to “TANGO! A LOVE and HATE Relationship”

  1. Regina Hellinger February 13, 2013 at 8:36 pm #

    Eva, I love this, the honesty and the reality! I feel your pain and, because of it, stopped writing for several years. Now that I am back at it, I can’t ever give it up again, it is a part of my soul. I have not found the solution for all of these situations but I did find 2 things to help. First, when I am inspired, I make it a priority! I figure out a way to work around it, make the inspiration the emergency that has to take over the top spot of my day…without completely neglecting my responsibilities. It really has worked so far! The other thing that has been useful is taking time to reflect/meditate each morning and journal right after that. I have found that most of my creative thinking occurs after that time of silence and if I get the guts of my ideas out before the rest of the house wakes up…I can work in the details afterwards when I am not needed for other things. My love and admiration go to you, my beautiful fitness guru!

    • pursuingthemuse February 13, 2013 at 9:09 pm #

      Regina, so glad to hear you are a writer too! All the best on your writing project/s. ~Peggy

    • hostingthemuse February 13, 2013 at 9:19 pm #

      I have to say Regina that I totally agree about the meditation in the morning. I use to wake up early before everyone else in the house and have that time of silence. Since I started school and doing the morning workouts, I kind of neglected the practice. Thank you for reminding me that I need to get back to what worked for me.

      Keep writing!

    • charmingthemuse February 13, 2013 at 10:02 pm #

      Regina, we ALL feel this pain. That’s what this blog is all about–sharing and supporting each other through it. I, too, have an on-again/off-again affair with my writing. With music, too. But I always come back to them because I remember that I truly love them. Morning journaling: I’m doing again now for the past few months. I drift away but fall back to it when I’m desperate enough. So glad you’re able to be a creative Chick with us here. Maybe you could submit a Chick Story of your own journey…

  2. Anonymous February 13, 2013 at 9:45 pm #

    Be true to the inspirational moment.

    So dinner gets served an hour later. Your family will understand.

    Roll out of bed at 2am, get up, and write down what it is that is moving you. Hell, drink a pot of coffee if your brain is yodeling.

    what you come up with will be worth it…and important…and maybe… brilliiant.

    It’s why they’ll gladly wait a little longer for dinner.

    And why YOU…will feel zero guilt for sleeping in a little longer later that morning.

    Because you honored the inspirational moment.

    • charmingthemuse February 13, 2013 at 10:04 pm #

      A wonderful way to put it: “honor the inspirational moment.” Thanks for sharing YOUR inspiration. 🙂

      • Anonymous February 13, 2013 at 10:13 pm #

        You’re welcome.

        And sorry about backing into your neighbors mailbox.


      • charmingthemuse February 13, 2013 at 10:28 pm #

        LOL Christopher Griffin, consider your cover BLOWN. You. Are. A Chick! And we all love you, though not as much as this post’s author, your amazing wife.

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